I Was 3 Years Old
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I was 3 years old and I wanted to play
My mother had no time she shooed me away
I was 4 years old and I really loved my mother
But I wasn’t really hers and she had my brother
I was 5 years old, my room was messy, and I was crying on my bed where I sat
She threw everything off my dresser and told me I was a little brat
I was 6 years old and wanted to sit with her
She said no, I wanted to cuddle but this I couldn’t acquire
I was 7 years old and she’d send me outside and lock the door
She didn’t like to be around me and inside it made my heart so sore
I was 8 years old and she didn’t care what had happened to me a little girl
She was just to busy didn’t have time to waste on me no time to deal
I was 9 years old I was a sad and lonely child
Quiet, stayed in my room, not at all wild
I was 10 years old and she really hated it when I would talk
She couldn’t deal with my noise and told me go outside, go for a walk
I was 11 years old and didn’t know why she didn’t love me
I loved her and to be cared about was all I wanted to be
I was 12 years old and constantly told to stand in the corner and shut up
I would stand for hours even if I just accidentally spilled a cup
Finally I got old enough to know
That she would never love me and that’s just so
One day I would be old enough to just get up and go
But she left me with an everlasting feeling of low
I am 24 years old now and I still love the woman that I called Mom
She’s hurt me much but she’s the only one I know, so yes I’m dumb
I have a son now that I love but when I’m mad my mouth goes to start with the same,
I have to stop, watch what I am going to say so I don’t continue on with her game
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That is very true adults are not always adults, thanks WillStarr.
Beautiful poem! And good for you for realizing that you don't want to pass this on to your son. That takes maturity!
Sorry for what you had to go through, and I'm glad you can write about it, and hopefully find healing. Take care!
Thanks prairie princess!
Lisa bless you.
And you also Vladimir.
An excellent poem even though it was sad.
Good parenting isn't easy. If we've had good parents then being a new parent is more likely to be easier because we can draw upon our own experience but if we were parented badly then there's a strong chance that we will carry on our parent's parenting legacy.
Parents can be both excellent role-models for their children in demonstrating how to parent and they can also be excellent anti-role models in demonstrating how not to parent! The latter is clearly more painful to children but in life we don't get to choose our parents - It's a real lottery and we have to do the best we can with what we've been given.
It's up to us to each take personal responsibility for our own lives, in this case to parent our children as best we can, learning from the best of our parents and learning from the mistakes of them too. It would be a real travesty to continue a bad parenting legacy and it's for us to take responsibility to break any cycle of bad parenting for the sake of our children. Knowing that something is wrong and then doing something about it, is our duty to make sure that we learn and then raise our children as best we can.
Thanks for sharing these thoughts and God bless.
You understand so well. The most important thing you can do is give your child the life that you wish you would of had. Thanks so much richtwf!
Im so sorry you had to go through this Lisa, you didnt deserve that. I raised a daughter & a son that werent mine, but I showed them as much love as I did my own boys. I knew people who would ask how I could treat them as they were mine, and I would just say that I married their father, so they were a part of him, I guess it came natural. She is the one that is missing out on a beautiful young lady, she should be very proud of you!!:) ge
Powerful and deep. Any woman can have a baby but it takes a real woman to be a mother. Keep up the good work! Voted UP!
The best thing you could do for your mother was to not be like her. Obviously she despised herself and took it out on you. Good for you for recognizing the danger of repeating her cycle at so young an age!
Thank you for you comments and for reading, it really means a lot to me esp. on this hub.
WillStarr Level 8 Commenter 16 months ago
Parents by design are supposed to be the mature ones. It doesn't always work out that way.